A Year Later
Created March 2025 — after the grief, after the chaos, after the silence.
Beyond the ordinary
I Broke a Heart to Save a Soul
This story came to me as I wrote 13 Rising. It lived in my body and mind for years, and now that it’s finally being released, the emotions are overwhelming. This is the journey of how I came to be—and the skills I learned along the way.
I’ve learned more than a thing or two. Maybe it’s time I shared my path, as best I can. And I’ll begin with the most important truth I know:
All you need is love.
My daughter and I have said this to each other so many times, it’s become our soul mantra. It has been the catalyst of our healing, the thread that held us through the breaking. Because yes, I broke a heart to save a soul.
Living Through the Storm
There were years I sat with guilt and shame from what they done.
If you saw the world through my eyes, you might understand. I wasn’t trying to cause more pain—I was trying to stop the pain from growing.
We were being torn apart from the inside.
I wasn’t just afraid of where I was—I was afraid of where we were headed.
I was damned if I do and I was damned if i didn't.
The feeling of being stuck between two equally difficult choices, where no option feels right or safe.
It’s the kind of moment that defines character, pain, and transformation.
I told myself:
If I can do this, do it. If it’s at all possible, do it.
And I kept going day by day.
A Year of Darkness
A Year of Darkness
Everything fell apart—personally, emotionally, spiritually. These events didn’t just shake me. They shattered me:
A cancer diagnosis (I’m still not sure if it was real or a cruel twist of timing)
The death of my father
The end of a relationship
Breaking of a heart to save us both
Abuse and betrayal from the systems meant to protect us
Friends who walked away or turned on me
Public humiliation and private grief
All of that happened within 14 months. It was a heavy, heavy silence. But even in the worst moments, I whispered to myself:
This too shall pass. Just keep going.
The Moment I Knew No One Was Coming
I remember it clearly. The moment I realized no one was coming. I had begged for help—from people, departments, powers—but nothing came.
So I sat still. In silence.
And that’s when something did come.
Not from outside. From within.
From that moment forward, I knew.
I am the light I was waiting for.
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